*My blog is an online portfolio but also an outlet for my feelings at this difficult time. I lost my Mum just over a year ago and by sharing my feelings on my page is helping me through the grieving process •
Today I woke up sad. I was instantly annoyed at the fact that I rarely have time to gather my thoughts. I wouldn’t change being a wife and Mother for the world and I am extremely lucky to have a beautiful healthy family.
But I am still grieving for my Mother.
Mum’s birthday is coming up, then Mothers day will be here before we know it and I can’t help feeling a surge of sadness. This morning the grief was overwhelming. I argued with my Daughter and we both left each other at the school gates in tears. I drove home through blurry eyes and instantly felt like the world’s worst Mum. Was she really pushing boundaries this morning or am I taking my mood out on her?