This week has been really tough. Olivia has had some kind of virus which seems to be getting worst before it is getting better and is finally on a course of antibiotics. We’ve had sickness and tears resulting in a mixture of clinginess, grumpiness and tiredness. It has been a horrible way to start the summer and we are all hoping it will clear up soon.
After losing mum earlier this year I am of course totes paranoid that something will be overlooked and checking her every symptom on Google. I guess it’s a way of life at the moment after Mums cancer going un diagnosed for so long and the doctors missing such vital clues.
Olivia’s not the only one suffering in our household this week. I am still carrying a lot of emotional stress which in turn is affecting the way my body functions. I have neck and back pain which has literally got to the point where it’s a constant dull weight on my joints and causing me a headache which I just cannot shift. I feel as if my body is so imbalanced and although I am beginning to heal on the inside from my loss, my structure just isn’t!
I am not writing this article because I am depressed or feeling overly desolate or to dampen anyone’s spirits but to simply share the experience of how the process of grieving affects ones body. I am healing but so far only from the inside. Grieving is exhausting. I have not slept a single night through since my Mum was diagnosed back in November.
So tomorrow I am going to see a local chiropractor for some healing therapy.
Chiropractors (practitioners of chiropractic) use their hands to treat disorders of the bones, muscles and joints. Treatments that involve using the hands in this way are called “manual therapies”.
Chiropractors use a range of techniques, with an emphasis on manipulation of the spine.
I know there is nothing physically wrong with my body and I continue to be fit and healthy with a great diet but I feel a sturdy realignment of my spine will rid of this dull ache in my neck and head and get me back on track with my healing journey.
I want to sleep well again and for my bouts of energy to last more than two hours. I want my body to feel as strong as my mind.
I guess the grieving process is a little like childbirth, everyone always says you eventually forget the pain and continue with everyday life but you never forget the experience.
Have you experienced the grieving process and how did it affect your body?
Thanks for being here x